Wednesday, September 19, 2012
Love At First Sight. Did you immediately fall in love with your child? This Mom didn't.
The feeling that I most remember when I looked at my daughter for the first time was paralyzing fear. This tiny little human being was my responsibility. All of a sudden someone else's life was on my shoulders and in those first moments with my daughter that was what I was feeling. And I had never been so scared in my life. I had read the books and took the classes but I felt so unprepared for that moment when she looked at me and the reality of motherhood set in.
It took me a day or so to let go of those feelings of fear and when I did I was floored by the feeling of love I had for my daughter. You can't prepare for that rush either. And when my second daughter was born I had been a mother for 5 years and I knew exactly was I was getting into. I knew that I had what it takes to be a good Mom and when I held my second daughter for the first time that intense love was immediate.
What were those first moments as a parent like for you?